Morning Routine I Don’t Fully Understand

I have some weird daily routine, actually it's more of an early in the morning routine. Like many people love, for example, to check out newspapers, printed or digital, I like to visit an adult website (no, it's not the one you're thinking about 🙂). Maybe you remember Tumblr from years ago, well there is something that many people moved to that changed Tumblr.

To be honest, I don't even know why I am on there, but I created an account on that website ages ago, it doesn't even turn me on or anything, it's literally as if I would scroll through newspapers. I did create some topics and I do moderate them on my own, some of them are popular, some are not. I enjoy, when I have a free moment on my own and that's usually early in the morning, to repost some content of other creators that I like.

I'm thinking it might be because I can see stuff that I never felt, or I would like to try or experiment with, or maybe just to fulfill my almost non existent sexual life. I really do have good imagination, and many ideas and many wishes, but that's how it ends, as ideas and wishes.

Freaking internet, one can find many stuff on it, sometimes even without looking for them. I wonder if I got addicted to that website, or it's something that gives me a little bit time for myself, to clear out my thoughts, to make my brain busy with something else so it stops going dark and depressed, to think I'm doing something that relaxes me even if it's not something I truly want but I consider it as a tiny little bit of "me time".